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  “Change your life by reading this book.… Once I turned the first page of this compelling story, I could not put it down. It reads like it was written by someone who was there. The author tells us it’s a past-life memory, but it is so crystal clear, full of human emotion and mystery: it is a real page-turner. Filled with sweetness and sorrow and most of all a message of hope and human passion to serve and survive, this is one read you won’t want to miss. It is an inspirational story par excellence.”

  —Maureen St. Germain, author of Reweaving the Fabric of

  Your Reality: Self-Study Guide for Personal Transformation

  “Angel of Auschwitz is filled with inspirations and wisdoms, which we can all draw on in this unpredictable and catalytic period of life on Planet Earth. The author reveals her own deep understanding of the dark forces, which have prevailed on our planet—the shadow side of the cosmos that creates, by intention, situations that invoke fear and keep us under their control. Germany in the time of Hitler is probably the best historical example of such a dark intervention.… Her cosmologies of the interplay between dark and light precisely matched [my] understanding.”

  —Wynn Free, principal author, The Reincarnation of Edgar

  Cayce?: Interdimensional Communication and Global Transformation

  “Brilliant storytelling combined with moving spiritual insights and truths. I highly recommend Angel of Auschwitz to anyone seeking a deeper understanding of the nature of love and forgiveness and how it can change our relationship to God, ourselves, and to all of humanity.”

  —Isaac George, author of What Really Matters:

  A Guide to Spiritual Awakening

  “Angel of Auschwitz is magnificent. Natasza’s story awakens our sense of soul, knowing that love, forgiveness, and compassion are true stepping stones on the path to peace. The Sisters of Light remind us that it is through unity of spirit that healing happens. Tarra has created a literary work that holds the potential to deepen our understanding of one another. Through this book, we are reminded that our soul is eternal and that we come forward in each life to be of service in the highest possible way in every single moment.”

  —Laurelle Shanti Gaia, author of Be Peace Now: A Course for

  Peaceweavers and president of the Infinite Light Healing

  Studies Center, Sedona, Arizona

  “If each one of us would follow Tarra’s vision and practice harmlessness, be more loving, and live more peacefully, the vibration of the collective consciousness would in time reveal the truth of this benevolent universe.”

  —John Randolph Price, author of The Abundance Book

  and The Jesus Code

  “I find Angel of Auschwitz to be an instrument of reconciliation and healing. It is the story of the age-old struggle between good and evil played out against the backdrop of Nazi Germany—right up there with Corrie ten Boom and Anne Frank.… Tarra uses her beautiful writing to bring forth the Holocaust as an archetype of oppression. Then she shows how compassion, forgiveness, and understanding can break down the walls of prejudice and hatred and bring diverse peoples together. This book transcends barriers and will contribute to right human relations, goodwill, and hopefully world peace.”

  —The Reverend Marian Breckenridge, cofounder,

  Northwest School of Religious and Philosophical Studies,

  Coeur d’Alene, Idaho

  Copyright © 2009 by Tarra Light. All rights reserved. No portion of this book, except for brief review, may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means—electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise—without written permission of the publisher. However, permission is not required to reprint the Prayer for Peace on Earth (this page) and the Invocation of the Heart (this page) if author Tarra Light and Frog Books are fully credited. For information, contact Frog Books, c/o North Atlantic Books.

  Published by Frog Books,

  an imprint of

  North Atlantic Books

  P.O. Box 12327

  Berkeley, California 94712 Cover design by Susan Quasha

  Author photograph by Tina Friedman

  Angel of Auschwitz is sponsored by the Society of Native Arts and Sciences, a nonprofit educational corporation whose goals are to develop an educational and cross-cultural perspective linking various scientific, social, and artistic fields; to nurture a holistic view of arts, sciences, humanities, and healing; and to publish and distribute literature on the relationship of mind, body, and nature.

  North Atlantic Books’ publications are available through most bookstores. For further information, visit our website at www.northatlanticbooks.com or call 800-733-3000.

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Light, Tarra.

  Angel of Auschwitz / Tarra Light.

  p. cm.

  eISBN: 978-1-58394-560-5

  1. Pelinski, Natasza, 1927—-Pre-existence. 2. Reincarnation—Biography. 3. Jews—Persecutions—Poland. 4. Holocaust, Jewish (1939–1945)—Poland—Personal narratives. I. Title.

  BL520.L54A3 2008

  133.901′35—dc22

  [B]

  2008040506

  v3.1

  To the

  Liberation of the Human Spirit

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Invitation

  Foreword

  Introduction

  Part One: My Early Years Come with Me

  “I Am Natasza”

  Family Life

  A Man of Honor

  The Seer

  Race and Nationality

  A Sacred Mission

  The Shoe Shop

  The Value of a Man

  My Moral Code

  Uncle Jacob

  Silence Speaks

  The Gift of Healing

  Life Restored

  The Flaming Torches

  Part Two: The Secret to Hitler’s Power The Less Visible Front

  Hitler’s Path to Power

  The New Religion

  Secret Rituals

  Strategies to Control the World

  Part Three: My Ministry Iron Men

  Arrival

  The Silver Brooch

  Barracks 12

  Gretta

  The First Night

  Dawn Patrol

  The Latrines

  Old Mother

  Reconnaissance

  Jezra

  Psychic Mind Link

  I Meet the Professor

  Heaven

  Beyond the Grave

  Exodus

  Angel of Deliverance

  The Holy Covenant

  Shields of Protection

  The Test

  The Victory of Love

  The Limits of the Mind

  The Wisdom of Love

  The Voice of God

  A New Day

  The Source of My Strength

  The Sword of Truth

  Magdalena

  The Bedside Angel

  Part Four: Healing Apprenticeship My Training Program

  The Wisdom of the Body

  Water

  Disease

  Life-Saving Supplies

  Jezra’s Apprenticeship

  First Aid

  Two Hearts

  Part Five: Bond of the Heart Klara

  Celebrate the Rain

  Raindrops for Teardrops

  A Bond of the Heart

  The Prince and the Wise Man

  All That Matters Is Love

  From Anger to Compassion

  Never Again

  The Healer’s Prayer

  The Healer’s Code

  Angels of Mercy

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sp; Healing by Day and Night

  The Gypsy

  Flying Symbols

  Jezra Meets Boris

  Boris and the Crows

  A Doll for Talya

  Girl Talk

  A New Life

  Himmler Visits

  Death Count

  Housecleaning

  My Water Spree

  The Note

  Captain Otto

  Klara’s Baby

  The Gift of Pain

  The Grand Design

  The Rape of Rosetta

  Jezra’s Inner Fortress

  Dream Lessons

  Confrontation with Hitler

  Captain Otto Revisited

  The Man Who Lived on the Sun

  Survival

  The Meaning of Life

  Hunger

  Waking Up

  The Collective

  Slave Labor

  Redemption through Suffering

  Men

  Part Six: Debates with the Commandant Expectancy

  The Massacre

  Debates with the Commandant

  Death Wish

  The Incinerators

  Karmic Justice

  Healing Karma

  Avenue of Escape

  The Blue Room

  My Recovery

  Courage

  Dream Message

  The Beating of Uncle Jacob

  Debates with the Commandant

  The Whipping

  Debates with the Commandant

  Part Seven: My Destiny My Destiny

  Meesha

  Confession

  Blessings

  Betrayal

  Last Walk

  Firing Squad

  The Angel of Death

  The Golden Prince

  Rise Above

  The Book of My Life

  The Wheel of Time

  Call of the Soul

  Time to Heal

  Afterword

  Acknowledgments

  Invitation

  THE LIFE STORY OF Natasza Pelinski, child of the Holocaust, has been offered in grace to the peoples of the Earth. It offers to humanity the opportunity to heal from the scars of oppression and persecution throughout history.

  You are now invited to place the light of your awareness on these pages before you. You are being called to participate in a collective healing for humankind. You can claim your power and accept this invitation to forgive the past and birth a new world. The fire of your consciousness can burn up the imprint of trauma, freeing humanity to bring in more Light.

  Foreword

  AS YOU READ THE pages before you, open your mind to new ways of seeing. Allow the story of Natasza to take you on a journey of self-transformation. These writings contain keys to unlock doorways to healing for those whose hearts have been yearning to be free. This book speaks to your soul in a language that transcends thought.

  Take time to reflect on the messages, images, and teachings. As each one of you moves through your individual healing process, the whole of the collective consciousness is uplifted. As you focus your attention on sending light to Auschwitz, expand your vision to include the wounds of oppression and victimization suffered by all races and religions throughout history—Native Americans, Tibetans, slaves from Africa, the people of Rwanda and Darfur, the Kurds of Iraq, and others. Call forth your intention, envision each people and nation, and send them light. Hold them in your heart and envelop them in a field of healing love.

  Natasza represents the unsung heroes and heroines of all time: everyone who has stood up for truth and freedom, who has dared to confront the forces of oppression.

  Your light is needed. Let us light the way forward for humanity. Join with readers around the world to birth the new consciousness upon our blessed planet Earth.

  Introduction

  THE UNFOLDING OF THIS story began with a past-life regression. I was seeking to heal physical and emotional afflictions that appeared to have originated from traumas endured during a previous lifetime. To my amazement, I was able to remember my life as Natasza at Auschwitz with depth of feeling and vivid recall. This therapy session became the catalyst that unlocked the floodgates of my soul memory. As I began to record the details of Natasza’s life adventure, the writing of Angel of Auschwitz was initiated.

  Soul Memory

  Carrying forth these memories from one lifetime to the next was part of the plan for my present life. My psyche has been impregnated with Natasza’s feelings and desires. I was born with the gifts of hands-on healing and clairvoyance, and I am continuing on with her mission, bringing light to the Earth and ministering compassion as a path of planetary healing. I was born feeling her pain and her struggle, and with illnesses similar to those known at Auschwitz. As I pursued a path of self-healing, I have come to grips with the causes of human suffering and have learned that spiritual freedom is discovered in the silence of one’s heart and is independent of the circumstances of the world.

  Guidance from the Masters

  As my gifts of inner sight developed, I began to realize that I had not been writing Angel of Auschwitz alone. All along, the Masters of Light had been sending thoughts and visual images into my mind. Without fully understanding the deep meaning of their communications, I intuitively trusted the integrity of the information received. The messages They have presented to me are addressed to the needs of humanity and do not necessarily represent my personal views or beliefs. It is my responsibility to remain in a state of neutrality, free from opinions or assumptions, while bringing forth knowledge from the higher realms. Channeling is not a completely accurate process. Whether the source is soul memory or spirit guidance, an interpretive process is involved because it comes through the brain and mental filters of the receiver as it is translated into words.

  Interwoven with guidance from the Masters is inspiration from my soul and God Self. The words emanate a transmission of Light that can raise consciousness.

  As the writing progressed, I established telepathic conduits that connected me with the souls of other victims who had died during the Holocaust. I was able to access knowledge that would complete the picture for areas where Natasza lacked direct experience. I have not done outside research on the Holocaust. Nor have family members or survivors ever discussed this subject with me. My purpose has been to demonstrate the authority of “inner knowing.”

  The value of this book lies in the wisdom and lessons learned. It is not intended to present a historical account. The story of Natasza conveys the spirit and feeling of each character and event. I cannot guarantee the hundred-percent veracity of every name, place, date, and fact. As you resonate with the vibration of Truth, you will be able to discern what is true for yourself. Trust your own inner knowing. It is your greatest ally.

  Intention

  The light of your consciousness can contribute to the healing of the world. You are being called to assist in releasing the pain of past human suffering, which is being held in the collective unconscious of humanity. By reading these pages with the intention that healing take place, you are adding your light to the collective psyche of many thousands of readers participating in the process of spiritual transformation. Trust that your intention will work for you even if you do not fully understand it. Do not underestimate the power of focused group intention to change our world.

  Intention is a power of mind propelled by the force of will. Our intention directs currents of thought-substance and creation energy to manifest what we envision and desire. By bringing light into the darkness, we serve as alchemists, transforming negative into positive. Let us shine the light of our consciousness into all enclaves of evil in the world and into the shadow side of ourselves.

  History continues to repeat itself until races, nations, and peoples release their attachments to the past and resolve their anger and grief, their guilt and their shame. We can heal the wounds of time by living in the heart in a state of unconditional love, by forgiving ourselves and our transgressors, and b
y learning our lessons, both individually and as a society. As we heal the past, we are clearing the way for the birth of a new consciousness.

  The Healing Power of Love

  The power of love is the source of miracles. Evil is redeemed by love, and darkness is transformed into light. Love has the power to heal because it is the very essence of God. By the grace of your love, the world can be healed.

  If it feels right to so do, imagine threads of golden light going from your heart to the hearts of every reader of this book. Imagine a web of hearts linked together, all sending love to the characters you will meet in the story and to all people who have suffered from oppression.

  Prepare yourself as you begin to read a graphic portrayal of survival in a Nazi concentration camp. You may find some passages unsettling or disturbing. If you feel distressed by any of the explicit descriptions, pray for healing and take some time alone. Focus your attention on your heart center and immerse your consciousness in that place of stillness within you. Then invite emotions triggered by the reading to come forward and open to experience them fully within that space of inner peace. The divine essence of your being can dissolve any disharmony, and the light of love can help you see with greater clarity.

  PART ONE

  My Early Years

  Come with Me

  PREPARE YOURSELF TO JOIN me now for a journey back in time. The past is calling us, beckoning us to travel together along the byways of history. Come with me, and see the forces of destiny at work as a madman’s dream sets Europe on fire. Walk by my side, watch through my eyes, and be witness to the lives of many long forgotten.

  “I Am Natasza”

  I AM NATASZA. I WAS born in Poland in a village near Kraków the 22nd day of December 1927. It was a time when the blue skies of peace graced our homeland. It was a time of respite between the great wars of our world.

  I came to Earth on a mission of service to humanity. I came to be a healer and a minister of love. I came to bring in light when darkness ruled the hearts of mankind.